Full disclosure, I'm not sure why this song is about waiting for a minivan, but here it is. This song's about going insane, but learning to use it to my advantage when I can, and never wanting to lose the parts of myself that make me a little off. These are also literally instructions on what to do with me if I start to get on your nerves.
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If I ever learn to listen, put me in a place where no one ever goes
Cos I don't ever wanna ruin the terrible mind that you've all come to know
Ya know, over the years, I've realized that standing in a crowd I damn near lose my mind
Baby, I just wanna keep breathing, and as long as I get the hell out of here I'll be just fine
Just watch me go insane,
You know it's always been my plan
So I'll just stand here in the rain
Just waiting for your minivan
Just waiting for your minivan
And if I ever start to seem normal, fill me with caffeine and lock me outside all night
Don't call, don't text, don't bother me, I'll find my way home and everything'll be alright
And if I act a little bit rabid, I still love you, I just need you to go away
But I'll never kick my nasty habits because you have just as many and I want you to stay
Just watch me go insane,
You know it's always been my plan
To I'll just stand here in the rain
Just waiting for your minivan
Yeah, if I ever learn to listen, put me in a place where no one ever goes
This album speaks to me in a special way, absolute best of the best. Songs about longing, missing people, and pure sweet calm. Completely touching and amazing. Nathaniel Liles